Owning MS
Even though I haven't been diagnosed for a full 4 months yet it's coming up on 6 months next week since I started this journey. The journey itself goes back years which I've talked enough about in the past but this is strictly the journey of dealing with this and looking at ways of improving. The stress and anxiety have been like nothing I've ever experienced before but things are starting to get back to normal a little bit. It's weird going from blogs and posts in the past few months of trying not to be down trying not to feel beaten and be positive to a post like this. I didn't expect to talk about truly owning the shit out of MS. I won't get cocky because I know this is an unpredictable disease and could try and attack at anytime. I am just doing my part to try and not make that happen.
I saw the physician assistant because my MS Doc is on maternity leave currently. We went over what's improved and just changes over the past few months. With a real genuine look she told me they don't see improvement like this often. It is rare to bounce back this far this quick with MS. She made sure to let me know not to change anything as far as diet, exercise, and just how I'm fighting this. She told me I'm a model patient Maybe that's true maybe it was to make me feel better about all I've done but I am very proud of what I've accomplished in such a short time. I'm the healthiest I've ever been just with a chronic disease.
46 pounds gone... I remember when I started this diet I looked at it as an impossible task. I didn't know how I was going to go from eating fast food almost every day, snacking on junk every night, and not really eating anything healthy to something that mirrors a Wahls protocol/Keto/Paleo type diet. I was really strict the first 30 days didn't cheat at all I learned what worked and have modified it a bit to work for me. I thought if I could lose 30 pounds this year that would be excellent. That diet started January 20th and when I was admitted to the hospital under a month later I had lost over 20 pounds already. That 30 pound milestone was a while ago and now I've hit my plateau which I knew was coming 4 pounds short of 50 It's weird wanting to lose 30 at the start and being frustrated I stopped so close to 50. Working out and losing weight are becoming fun for me. At some point the losing will start and it'll be time to put on some muscle but just happy to look and feel a lot better.
It's no secret that MS has no cure. I will probably never beat MS although science keeps improving I won't give up on that possibility either. With that being said here's how I'm owning MS. I'm owning it with diet and exercise obviously but also by not letting it take control of me anymore. It will win some battles and may take away some more of my abilities but that doesn't mean I've lost. I will own MS and I will never lose because every day I'll wake up to battle. I will win by how I live and how I fight. This is my fucking life and it's time for me to be in control again. MS is a bitch but she's my bitch.
I saw the physician assistant because my MS Doc is on maternity leave currently. We went over what's improved and just changes over the past few months. With a real genuine look she told me they don't see improvement like this often. It is rare to bounce back this far this quick with MS. She made sure to let me know not to change anything as far as diet, exercise, and just how I'm fighting this. She told me I'm a model patient Maybe that's true maybe it was to make me feel better about all I've done but I am very proud of what I've accomplished in such a short time. I'm the healthiest I've ever been just with a chronic disease.
46 pounds gone... I remember when I started this diet I looked at it as an impossible task. I didn't know how I was going to go from eating fast food almost every day, snacking on junk every night, and not really eating anything healthy to something that mirrors a Wahls protocol/Keto/Paleo type diet. I was really strict the first 30 days didn't cheat at all I learned what worked and have modified it a bit to work for me. I thought if I could lose 30 pounds this year that would be excellent. That diet started January 20th and when I was admitted to the hospital under a month later I had lost over 20 pounds already. That 30 pound milestone was a while ago and now I've hit my plateau which I knew was coming 4 pounds short of 50 It's weird wanting to lose 30 at the start and being frustrated I stopped so close to 50. Working out and losing weight are becoming fun for me. At some point the losing will start and it'll be time to put on some muscle but just happy to look and feel a lot better.
It's no secret that MS has no cure. I will probably never beat MS although science keeps improving I won't give up on that possibility either. With that being said here's how I'm owning MS. I'm owning it with diet and exercise obviously but also by not letting it take control of me anymore. It will win some battles and may take away some more of my abilities but that doesn't mean I've lost. I will own MS and I will never lose because every day I'll wake up to battle. I will win by how I live and how I fight. This is my fucking life and it's time for me to be in control again. MS is a bitch but she's my bitch.
Comments
Post a Comment